ive watched spykids!!

yesterday (saturday) was the first time we argued in 'public'

it was about his driving skills

his negligence (in my opinion)

let me explain one by one. 'public' means, in the living room, where 2 housemates can hear us eventhough they were in their rooms but with their doors opened, and 3 house-keepers. *ha!*

wasn't that cool?

as for his negligence, he is always VERY CARELESS when he is driving. he said i complained too much when he is behind the wheel. but if he were to drive carefully, then would i at the first place nag? so he became stressed when i nag, then what about me? i would be stressed as well when he doesnt drive properly!

do u know that to that extent, that he is lazy to use the clutch when he is driving a manual? goodness me! dont drive then if ure LAZY! the car would jerk if u dont use it. he is even LAZY when it comes to changing gears.

what else? he can miss a turning, make that numerous turnings (max 2 so far) in A ride home. a 15 minutes ride home, he can miss 2 turnings all together.

????

what's the explanation?

a man handling multi-million business wouldnt even be that careless, would he?

tell me about brain-occupied hence the forgetfulness.

huge DUH!

we've been arguing about his driving wayyyyyy back in IMU.

he couldnt concentrate and would miss turnings even in KL. (hence not a recent disease)

u'd think he would shut the hell up when i yell?

NO! he would sometimes retort with ULTRA LAME excuses! i cant exactly remember them. perhaps things like he doesn't know the way. this would inflame me seriously! like HELLO? it is like telling me you dont know the way home. then i would burst and snapped WHY DIDNT U ASK ME THEN!??!?!?!

it would also enrage me when he said he forgot the way. blardy!

so we said, nope, more like i said, i suggested that the best way to this problem is! THAT I DRIVE! settles everything, no?

tsk tsk tsk. guys and their ego.

imagine me fetching him, and our housemates, who happened to be his batchmates.

ahahhaahhaha

though this has never happened, but would, soon! HA!HA!

i have to be an idiot and point where to turn sometimes, just in case if he decided to conveniently forget (how do i know when he would miss a turning?), and he would go 'i know i know' and i would just ignore him when im in the mood and continue pointing.

obviously, dont get me wrong.

when im angry, i would get over it quickly after spilling them.

how could I get angry with such a man when he comes up with such video? i print-screen this photo from the video. made me go 'awwwww' when i see the 2009-forever. how attentive of him to put "- forever"! ahhaahhaha im a psycho i know, but truthfully, the first thing that entered my mind when i saw that word was WOW, how thoughtful of him!

:)

well, this is not all about my new life.

about marriage

we'll do it bit by bit ok? lols!

woh-k!

time for me to go get my case notes done!

sigh

dont know lots of things.

FRP: million?

me: yes? *jovially*

FRP: how come u everything also dont know wan?

me: ha? i also dont know why i dont know.

PA: aiyah, slowly la, shez learning ma.

me: yealoh yealoh, give me some time. i am learning now.

how embarrassing.

nope, im not actually that embarrassed. i felt stupid BUT YET i want someone to teach me! as in, i already know i lack of knowledge, but i need people to teach me!

what i do now in IPP is to screen the medications (they seemed to be normal to me :S cause i dont know what is wrong you see. i dont know what cant be given with what) im suppose to detect wrong dosage or wrong frequency or interactions, but i am oblivious to them all. ??? how do i know? i dont have time to go through all the drugs one by one!

so, the screening part is always fine to me :S

next would be filling and checking. if i do the filling, then someone else has to check. and vice versa.

mmm....this is really continuous education. i need to find ways to feed my brain.

i want to be like the FRPs, where they can intervene and argue with the doctors! ;)

ekekkekekeke

till then!

cheerio!

what a blow!

SO SAD!!!

for an instant i felt like crying!

my coffee!!!

special coffee!!!

im shocked!!

i thought i still have a lot! but just now when i was craving for one, i found 3 pkts left! ONLY!!!

i swear there should be more!

more than half!!!

S.O.B.S!!!!!

dont care!

calling mom tonight and make her send by AIR MAIL!!!!!!!!!!

tittle tattle

so potong stim.

people call u want to talk to you cause emo ma...

instead make me more emo woh!

marah people for what!

and so kiamsiap for what? cannot reply my sms ah? 20 cents nia ma!!!

not concern about me wan meh?

dont need to care about me wan lah!

yealah dont care lah dont care lah!

bangang betul!

so unenthusiastic and reluctant want to talk to me ma fine loh!

wont call u anymore!

call me only when u want to speak to me!

*geram*

i hate all of you!

=(

i miss my ah ee..

=(

**&^&^$^%#$@$%#@%$@^&

effing fedex! wasted like 5pounds calling yOU!!!

and you tell me you can only deliver tomorrow!!!

AND EFFING TALK MOBILE! NO RECEPTION IN LECTURE THEATRE!!!

i swear i would have ran out and sign my parcel midway pp3 test feedback session!! BARHGHHHHH!!!!!

ALL BOLLOCKS!!!

im mad + crestfallen. someone help :(

MR!!!! IM A MISS!!!!

Dear Mr Million

 

Thank you for your recent enquiry.

 

Your parcel was cleared through UK Customs yesterday, we did try to deliver the parcel to you today however, we were unable to gain access through the security entrance. The driver did try to call you but your telephone was switched off. The driver will attempt a deliver to you again tomorrow.

 

If I can be of further assistance please do not hesitate to contact me.

 

Yours sincerely

Kam Sangha

FUCK IT FUCK IT!!!!

I HAD CLASS! AND THAT DAMN TALKMOBILE SUX!!! no RECEPTION IN THE LECTURE THEATRE!!!

OMGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SOBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK IT!!

I SO FEEL LIKE HOPPING ON TO A CAB AND GO TO YOUR OFFICE AND COLLECT!! BARRGHHH!!!!

PS: uh..pardon my language :( *defeated look*

benumbed

wait until u help me, the cows come home already

i settled everything already

guys are realy unreliable. full stop

ok. now i kenot wait to listen to ur 1001 excuses. im saying this sarcastically, in case u didnt get me

everything has to be black and white now , when ure toking to very very ignorant and dense people

the tag below is a wee bit(scottish fav slang) inaccurate. im not exactly furious. because i was too furious for the past week that it has desensitized me. trust me, it takes a hell lot of energy than u can ever imagined! so detrimental that it would totally sucked the entire air out of you!

when the graph hit the peak, it cannot plateau, it will then drop and drop and drop until it goes below the x-axis. so you'll get a negative value.

then u will start to thank god, either that, or begin cursing.

and ditto! that's life people! :))) how fun!

in all honesty, having a GF is the greatest gift that one can ever ask for, besides having a ONE HELL OF A GREAT FAMILY! beats any homosapiens with Adam's apple in EVERYWAY!

i really really want you!!!!!SOBS!

FOCKKINGGG ASSHOLLLLL!!!!!

SOME STUPID MORON REALLY WAITED UNTIL THE LAST SECOND TO BEAT ME IN THE BID!!

i bid at 1.50! and the fella bid 1.70!!! *&^!#&%@&^#%@^&#%&@^%

SO THERE GOES MY JAMIE OLIVER SILICONE MUFFIN TRAY!!!!!!!

I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MADDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!

AND SOOOOOOOO SADDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!

PLEASE HELPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MINS?no im not????

i am sooOOOO mad!!!!!

so freaking MAD!!!

why are people so dense!

how can people get so dense!!

how can i teach everything!!!! i cannot tolerate this!!! CANNOT!!!!!!

i really dont know how much longer i can endure this!!!

ARGHHH!!!

how come charles can multitask better than him???

how come my brother can be so irresponsible?!??!?!?!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

not a pocketful of sunshine

i dont understand.

why do most of the fights arise while driving. or more precisely, when he is driving?

as much as i want to rant and rave about driving! i'd spare you the details nxt time! because im very much on flame at this very second.

i am a very short tempered person.

i try to be nice and explain but if you still dont get it, i can no longer retain my impatience and thus explode!

it confuse the hell out of me because i do not understand why all this fighting could happen in a relationship where two people think that they are in love.

ive asked him before if he thinks im a cry baby.

i didnt want to cry those times that i did. i hate myself when it happens. 

i reckoned i never cry so much in my life.

i got IMMENSELY envious when people rave about their loved ones, be it in the blogs or hearing them first hand.

after that, i would ponder and start to doubt. why dont i feel the same?

i wondered if this was a compatibility issue .perhaps we just weren’t right for each other if i could keep disagreeing like this all the time. or was it my fault that i am headstrong, difficult and vocal about my views. 

just last week, i cried again. and i told myself, why do we need to put ourselves in such pain? do we really need to follow through the ordeal that we've sign up to?

never mind i comfort myself. i will gain from the journey. life's a pilgrimage.

i will be smarter and more matured, if not wiser.

my expectation is high. albeit that, im aware of my own qualification.

this only leads me to more confusion and dilemma.

has love shaped me into a nastier person?

i also hate it when trivial matters can easily drives me up the wall.

im mindful that perfection does not exist. but can i forego once and for all, ALL the expectations that have shaped my mind for the past 23 years?

before i took the giant stride and dove into the cave, i naively thought that i could change. he could change. i thought that we could work as a team to beautify the cave, to light it up. guess it was all wrong. i have mistaken.

what was i thinking back then before i dive? the more i think, the more disconcerting it becomes.

for all that, i liked the fact that he would try to reconcile and broach about the issues before night falls.

another episode that u may find amusing. the closing of the war would usually involve him admitting that it was entirely his fault and i would object saying that it was mine. so another fight ensued....

duh! just kidding about the last sentence :S

well, at the end of the day, i guess it is a question of if i am strong enough to withstand this trial on top of all the others?

tell me im mean.

c'mon. say it.

sidenote: Take a bow by rihanna is so comforting.

can Furiosity kill the cat too?

just came back from camp!!!

whoohooO!!

okies...isetan has premember sales today! i walked past it in gardens during lunch just now and saw MANY people queuing to enter. tsk tsk tsk.

while ms.cho and ms.chai IS NOW at the isetan klcc, im considering which one i should go to. i am more familiar with the one in klcc though.

stupid ROBING aunty (from the company who are renting the IMU graduates robes) got very offended when i actually just want to ask for her opinion. effing witch. i wanted to ask why am i getting an M whilst huey wuen who is taller than me got an S. good grief! i blardy paid for it okay? you are not doing a charity by renting it out for free OKAY!!!!! so PLEASE!! where's your freaking manners? anyhow i am your customer!!! i really feel like smashing her up!! %@^#$!^&%@$#

&@#*&^#$%

.....

&^@%#&^@$#

now i dont know what to wear for convocation tomorrow. i dont know why did i agree to go at the first place. it simply didnt occur to me that i would be one of the few ones who wouldnt be getting anything (prizes). ouch. embarassing. =)

would like to congrats Fiona though, the GOLD MEDALLIST! ;-) hey! she's a OOI! :p ehehhehe. all the more to make me proud of her! muahahahahhaha 

:p

sigh. i need to go shopping tonight. need to get a black formal shoe for tomorrow.

can no longer take my own sweet time to buy one. cant always be picky *cry*

with fingers crossed, hope i can find something which can arouse me!

bless me!!