is he special to me?

wanted to take a pic of his tooth

forcing him to open his mouth when he was going into slumber

today is the third monday, of kayjay having his little tooth.

haih, gotta backdate everything.

i wasnt aware of his tooth. sap pai. :)

aunty was the one who found out and told me. it wasnt visible at that time, u can only feel it. feel it with your finger ;)

after 3 weeks, it is visible now. i even took a pic. will ask hb to edit, crop the pic and i'll attach here for remembrance.

he only has one tooth. aunty said usually the other tooth will sprout out together but in kayjay's case, it is only one. it is okay kayjay, there is no hurry.

uncle has stopped pestering me to get a baby walker. because? he has questioned me on the reason for not getting and i hope i have made myself clear.

ok, what can kayjay do?

his achievements.

he can sit up straight, unsupported. he can crawl on his tummy, like real quick. flipped like a dolphin. on the bed, he can flip unflip flip unflip and rotate 360 all over the bed.

BUT! he doesnt dare to move when he is on the floor.

i put him on the floor, wanna check if he can crawl on the floor but nope, he remained stationary.

he starts to lift up his and inches forward. i dont know how to explain this. but he is learning to crawl on his limbs. with the butt lifting, he would soon be able to do that i am sure.

after so many falls from the bed, he has learned to bring himself to a halt when he reaches the edge of the bed *grin*

he is also very responsive these days =) u could tease him. u act like u want to carry him but then didnt carry him in the end, he would make noise :)

if u play with him and stop abruptly, he would go on a whim.

oh, and he is getting up almost every 2 hours at night. :S

he learns to splash the water in the tub during bath time as well!

as for food, i didnt give up on avocado. he took it on saturday. hb went " u wont give up, will ya?" ;P

ive also given him broccoli. first time trying this week.

also, i finally dig out the munchkin food feeder and gave him banana, papaya and pear :)

nibble on the handle of the feeder when he was done with the banana

im looking forward to next weekend so that i can try brinjal/eggplant!

im waiting for peaches / nectarine to be in season. the perils on being here. if only im in KL, i bet i could give him a lot more variety!

we try to back carry him these days

note, u should front carry younger babies

learning to stand up on his own

this is a little dangerous hence need to be watched at all times

made this yesterday!

steamed banana cake!

sort of a destress thing :p

couldnt give a damn about the unfinished project given by the almighty frp

gnawing his own toes!

haha! :D

can sit up unsupported and play with his toys

ure not the greatest

ive gone through a month of clinical. yet im still alive. i thought i was going to die. although i did feel like dying.

ha-ha.

what is this? die die post.

anyway, yeah, u wouldnt believe what i am going to tell u next.

i cried in front of my preceptor. one frapping frp. ugh.

we need to complete 3 wards in clinical rotation. 1 ward = 2 weeks.

hence, ive braced 2 wards, which make that 1 month. i cant wait to quickly skim through this remaining 2 weeks.

how did that incident happen? i know, most of u will be interested in that.

it happened just , erm, thursday i think? yeah, cause then the frp took leave on friday, which is such a joy and blessing!

ohkay. we were in ward on that fateful day. early in the morning. one patient passed away and it caused quite a stir in the ward. everyone was running around etc. then few specialist came and wanted to review one patient. obviously, this patient has many complications. he had a uncontrolled fits on top of all the complexity so when they were discussing about the patient, i tried to give some input. i wasnt really giving any ideas or opinions of my own, i was just INFORMING them of what happened yesterday, when the question propped up.

means when the doctors asked something, i offered to answer them. i told them, informed them what medicine was given yesterday.

after they were done with this patient, the frp called me in to his room. we both sat down, and he started bombarding. me.

he explained that i was wrong to do that..etc etc etc..yada yada...

sorry, of course what happened above wasnt the only story, there were slightly more to it but i find it difficult to explain in detail here.

so to sum it up, i got screwed. and embarrassingly, i cried halfway through the fracas. he didnt listen to my explanation. so then i know what type he is hence i kept quiet through out. tears kept streaming down my face and THANK GOD i had on my face mask. the wonders of face mask. u know, with a face mask on, u can yawn without covering your face and can do a lot of nonsense behind without people knowing. so fun :p

anyway, yeah, after he gave me an earful, i went to the bathroom and wash up.

haih. btw intec people, dhina is in queen! in kota kinabalu! ;) she is in my ward and she asked " what happened to u? why is ur eyes red?"

oh, i brushed it off and said i couldnt stand the family (referring to the patient who passed away that morning) sorry dude, gotta use u. please forgive me.

oh, what a tale.

" clinical is very tough right?"

i never said it wasnt. and i never said i wanted to be in! im not those bpharmers!

"u see! dont know where is the info in the book? got book also dont know where to find!" hello? i dont even own this book(lexicom), i dont use it, so how the hell do i know where to flip?

" got book in front of u also dont know the answer"

people, i was looking at the book, reading out the answer but he said wrong. wrong answer.

"use your brain to think! ur brain is to do what?....... is not to study only, is to think!"

"study study also no use wan, need to think! thats why i keep tell u people...........etc etc etc"

"so how? study already? want to discuss? or dont want to discuss already?

" so how? any questions? no questions? then i ask u questions"

got questions ask u also no use. ask like not asking. cause he will ask me to go back and read and find :S

"dont answer back! when i say u are wrong means u are wrong. definitely there are reasons. go back and check!"

"i know u are keen to learn. but really, ur knowledge is way below standard. next time please check with me before u do any intervention! u think ure so smart huh? bla bla bla"

i didnt do any intervention of my own. i didnt suggest anything of my own. i suggested what he had suggested to the HO. furthermore, the HO referred to her specialist before ordering the drug. and i never thought i was smart. i never said or acted like i know a lot. i always said i am dumb. i wasnt confident at all in clinical so how could i go about offering people my views? i kept quiet most of the time. so i felt a lil useless, following the doctors on round. i DONT know how to do intervention. i dont know what dose is right. what is wrong.

i did do a few silly mistakes like telling the doctor Tablet azithromycin is 500mg od and IV is 400mg od. damn! i even said I AM SURE about this! -_-'''

why want to memorize so many guideline? why need to?

i havent even had time to read about baby signing which im suppose to do with kayjay and now i need to memorize guidelines.

btw, we dont do that in our uni duh. so dont expect everyone to be the same.

and not everyone study everyday when they go home NOW. we have a life. unlike you. you shouldnt force people to lead the same lifestyle as u. what about my son? who will play with him when he comes home? i should ditch him and memorize guideline for u? who will plan what meals to prepare for kayjay?

your experience did contribute to your knowledge today, dont deny that!

ok, that is all about this. i want to blog about kayjay next! =)

contemptuous frp

"u will kill people in ward! im just being honest here!"

"wwahhhhh ur antibiotic is so bad"

"u need to present like the doctors! then only we are up to par with them. then only we can stand up and discuss with them. then only our profession can be looked up to"

"u have to think like the doctors, then u will know what they are up to"

"what is the difference between artemisinin and quinine? i give u tips. look at the pharmacokinetics, the half life, the MOA"

"give me 10 reaons why ceftriaxone is good?"

sienness

i know im dumb. i forgot 90% of what ive learnt in uni.

its good that u scold us and ask us many questions, so that we can go home and ready.

but there are ways to do it. the last thing that u should do MOCKING.

u drive people's self esteem down the hill.

no doubt im under lots of stress under your tutelage,

good and bad

bad that i fall asleep even before my son does,

before 9pm im already in deep slumber

happy when dear son sleeps early

bad when dear son wakes up in the night and i cant stay awake to coo him

good when i come home with a little enthusiasm,

hoping to study my s off after dinner

good that i can forget everything else when i come home to kayjay and finally break into a wide smile

bad that i seems to forget that i should study when i see kayjay

i can just look at kayjay for hours and not do anything else. is this good or bad?

please do not USE my son!!!

backlog

my mommy can spot me at night!

glow in the dark pants bought by dear dad

darndest

cmon KJ! bite it!

pisses u when u bolt to the room and this greets u?

i dont want to study:(

study is one thing

memorizing is another!

i need to memorize guideline-s

note the s please

right. anyway,

kayjay can crawl!

starting last monday, i was aware

he came home and we realized he inched forward

we got so excited and hence try to lure him forward with remote control, astro's and ps3 joystick.

think kayjay would grow up to be a gadget geek? haha!

he loves the remotes

right, back to his crawling.

he cant commando crawl.

he uses both his arms to pull his body forward.

he inches around the bed from monday till yesterday

however, he began to crawl from bed to the floor this afternoon!

that was a feat i would say

and i have a hunch, the nightmare begins

note to myself, i would need to scrub the bedroom floor every sat and sun

so that he can crawl around the room

no way im letting him out of the territory

way too filthy outside

besides, he loves to put things into his mouth

worse is that he would lick the floor?

i hate to imagine it

next,

i failed to keep count on the number of falls

here are a few that ive managed to capture ;)

i was in the room but wasnt aware of this

he was quiet, played on his own

next,

this time he wailed

awww he had to give u this look

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limited edition photo!

haha!

yummeh kayjay?

=)

what to feed?

the first anniversary present

its apron:)

one for me and one for him

the pretty beige one is mine and the colourful one is his! just what ive wanted =)

> how true do u believe that oats can reduce cholesterol?

i have naively believe this UNTIL i did my chol test last month! my LDL is slightly high?

how can that be true?

i eat oats almost everyday as my breakfast! and it is not just a small mug of it, it is a huge bowl! u know how appetizing i can get in the morning

oh well..no idea what went wrong

next up

> about kayjay's meal

he didnt fancy pureed pumkin yesterday :(

also, he doesnt like my pureed plum :(

plum is understandable because it is sourish.

pumpkin? haih, i even baked it instead of steam as baking retains more nutrients

so! i will give oats + pumpkin again this morning. ive already prepared them and both father and son is still asleep.

rather rare especially for KJ cause he would usually wake up before 8!

how many falls?

peaceful night

(+) hb brings kayjay out so im alone at home

(-) sorethroat worsens in just one hour? incredible

also, i should document this, kayjay fell off the bed again last night

this time was...it wasnt a bad fall, like say he fell 1m high or something

again, he fell from my bed and got stuck in between our mattress and his cot

it was in the middle of the night

he sort of grunted, like he always does when hez sleeping (when this happens, i'll nurse him)

i heard it but decided to ignore and continue my slumber

then again, i heard the noise so i think its time to look for my son? :)

so i sat up and searched for him with squinting eyes

scanned the entire bed, dont have!

alarmed!

eyelids flew open to the maximum!

looked down!

oh shit!

he got stuck! horrible sight!

shit shit!

WHAM! woke hb up!

both os us kelam kabut

i tried to carry him but cant! got stuck!

he is crying now, not continuous though. wailing type

after few attempts to save him has failed, he started to cry already , a real cry this time

then finally hb pushed our mattress away and i managed to lift him and cradled him in my arms instantly

haih...

what a night

he got quiet immediately

:S

phew

so yea, that was it, another fall

:)

no bumps no blue black, nothing. =)

are u ready for this?

shit, dont think i can post it in time in conjunction with the DATE

im late by few minutes (by the time i finish posting the entire entry)

anyway,

if u can make up the puzzles on the cupcakes,

.........

oh, and there were 25 of them

i ate 3 when i was transporting the cakes home cause i was too hungry

i was just brooding over the fact that we couldnt even make it through the 1st on a happier note

dont understand?

it means we didnt go through the day in good spirits

we HAD to argue the night before

sigh

then,

he tried to make it up today after work

drove straight to town,

planned to bring me to Nishiki, a jap restaurant

unfortunately, it wasnt opened till 6.30pm

and we were there before 5.30pm

hence we decided to give LITTLE ITALY a try

if uve been to kota kinabalu,

u'll know how people rave about this restaurant

which i dont fancy!

ugh!

we thought we should give it another chance

but...

bah!

no way im going there again!

italiannies rates better than this over-rated restaurant!

my salmone

salmon was not fresh!

carbonara was soso

we had a rather good time catching up after not talking since last night

his grilled chicken

salmon pizza

salty

ewww

a card which he claimed expressed everything, all his thoughts

i'll reveal the present next time

what i'd like to share now is...

the night had to end bitterly

we came home and i brought the cupcakes into the room

he was elated...

then he brought the cakes out to the living room as i told him to share with the rest

they wanted to go out for dinner first so we left the cakes untouched

did our stuff and my migraine got worse

so after preparing my things,

i stood at the doorway and said " i'll eat the cupcake and im ready for bed"

he said ok and continue surfing the net

hence i sat outside and ate one cake

then another

then i got into the room,

brushed my teeth,

and extorted " how come u didnt go out and eat the cake with me"

he looked a little astonished

"i thought u said u wanted to eat one cake and go to sleep"

"yes, but what is the point of eating it alone?"

do u guys see my point?

do i need further elaboration?

am i too demanding?

yes, it was dump of me to expect or to assume u will go out and sample the cake with me

i thought u should try the cake and give me the feedback?

to tell me if the cake is delicious?

i am speechless

what kind of a celebration?

i mean, how do u celebrate..say a birthday for a friend?

do u buy her/him a cake and then shove it to them and thats it?

u do your own things after that?

u ignore him/her and let her eat it herself?

or was it my mistake that i should actually tell him to go out and try the cakes WITH ME?

i slept right after that and now that im awake to do some chores,

eg washing the diaper, rinse my pump, fill up water into bottles,

i went to check on the cupcakes,

they were untouched

*twist into a knot*

in total, ive eaten 5 and i kept on avoiding eating those with the letters

:(

i didnt want to break the words

:(

Pregnant Me

nothing to do in TDM

machine breakdown

YAY!

lols

anyway,

ive reserved this photo to be posted here

some photos would be specially reserved for this blog

fb is too public :p

back to this photo,

there were request from friends who wanted to see pregnant photos of me

they are just evil as they wanted to see how bad i could be with a HUGE tummy

:p

this was in the 6th month?

~ 5-6 mth

not sure if ive posted this before

if i did not, here goes

this was taken in KK, either in dec/jan 2009

face a lil bloated

and hair like a lioness

a lion to be exact

lioness does not have hairs like a lion

i hope u understand me

please dont use baby walker

i AM NOT getting baby walker for KJ

no 1 : bad for spine, prone to injury and many more

no2 : save money ;)

haha

please rmber when its ur turn :)

read them here or goggle them

info 1

better info! please read!

overlooked

souvenirs from her highness!

4 boxes of ferrero

simply gifts like this bring lotsa joy to us

the ferrero is for hb

cote d'or is for me

=)

she came for 3 days 2 nights (weekend)

she taught me how to make 'loh mai gai'

hb likes to eat and it really annoys me each time he orders it outside EVEN when he knows they suck! thats number 1. number 2, it is overpriced

hence now i can make my own loh mai gai and he has no reason to order outside :p

next,

there are backlog of events for me to report

kj is 7 mths old

firstly, KJ can sit unsupported, well, not exactly upright but it was still ..something to be lauded :p

secondly, he begins to sleep with his chest on the bed, they call it 'meniarap'

if only he sleeps this way few months earlier, then his head would be shaped nicely. the back os his head/skull is flat now :(

anyway, just 2 weeks ago he starts to sleep one sided and then next, he flipped over and sleep

thirdly, it has been A WEEK that he wakes up in the middle of the night. he lifts up his head(cause he sleeps like a tortoise) and make grunt with his eyes closed.

think hez having nightmare :( poor kid

hb wants to put him on the bed with us but i do not encourage co-sleeping cause it is dangerous. why? can read about it online, the danger of SIDS :)

anyway, we got him a bed for a reason, so that he can sleep independently.

next,

he can make more noise these days!

just over the weekend, he can lalalalala... he is asking us to carry him! :) omg! speaking of him now makes me miss him

im blogging away at work, tdm :p

im looking forward to this coming weekend! it is raya hols and it is the first time we are going for a short holiday as a family!

cant express how excited i am!

not to mention a little nevous

cause i need to be well prepared, as we'll be travelling with KJ

the trips home to ipoh/kedah is not counted cause u have families there, hence ure not afraid if u are short of any belongings

hence im already starting to make a list of items to bring

pray that it would be a smooth journey

oh, i forgot to mention that we will be driving all the way to sandakan from kota kinabalu!

that would take an approximate of 4 hours~

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another joy that i'd like to share~

a present for us~

yay! makes like so much more exciting! ahhaha

why?

i can buy more food and prepare them ahead of time. marinade and cook them and store them in the fridge so that we can have a fuss-free dinner on weekdays

can make jelly

can buy bags of fruits

hb can make cold drinks~

can store more of kj's ebm (expressed breast milk) in a odour-free space

see? benefits everyone!

another rule to remember:

MUST get BIG FRIDGE! even when u have 3 people in a household, or two

trust me!

another rule that ive learnt before this is,

MUST get GOOD mattress!

obviously we cant afford rm10 000 dunlopillo

but this current local made one seems fine

we've learnt our lessons and hence i'd like to share them!

we bought a fridge, one door fridge, but it is clearly insufficient

as for the mattress, i didnt look far at that juncture. i asked hb to get a cheap one :p haih... ended up wasting more money as we had to buy another mattress rm2k - rm3 cant remember

the first one was made of foam and it was rm400-500. blerhh...my mistake

the fridge was his mistake

:p

so 1-1

haha