generation gap

a Yummy and Perfect-for-Mugging-Season snack!~

Was hoping the pumpkin seeds could carve some anaesthesia knowledge into my pea brain.

One more paper!!!

Just one moreeE!!!

I can't wait!

I can't wait to burst from the cage and...

urm...but i don't know where i should head to.

Mom would not be happy with me.definitely not.

Having said that, i have not forgotten my conscience to toe the line. i do ask her for permission, even if i have already somewhat made my choice sometimes :( 

I know the limits and i will not cross it.

I'm no abuser as well.

i hope im not

I don't want to take advantage of the LOVE , on top of everything else that she has given me.

Had a row with her the previous night. It all started with messages and then phone calls. Little did i know that it would involve hard sobs as well!

*cover face* malunya

I asked her if i can go to Redang and she didn't reply me. I thought she was busy , so fine. never mind. i waited for a few days and i messaged her again. still didn't reply.

To be honest, i knew she would be angry thus i dare not call :(

In the midst of sitting for my final semester 5 exam, i called her that night and she chirpily answered my call. The fire came. I thought she was busy therefore the absence of reply. Leave that aside, bla bla bla bla, she gave me the nods. Somewhat unwillingly.

For some reason, a foolish one indeed, i texted her another message.

it sounded like this,

I am disappointed. even if you are angry, you should reply my messages. i want to let you know that i still respect you that is why i asked you for permission. you should have atleast said something. i know you thought that i have made my decision without your consent but this is not the case. now i really don't know how to communicate with you. good night.

(-__-')

Mom called back.

first ring, i refused to pick up.

on second ring, Merman asked me to answer.

"....................."

after the conversation, only did i realise how lucky i am!

I have actually forgotten about her love for me!

How could i?

How atrocious of me!!

i was drowned with lotsa. LOTSA guilt upon listening to her words.

i'm sorry.

i'm such a terrible child.

gah

how did this post lead to this point?

:S

Anyway, it felt good to be loved and to feel loved once again.

Thanks mom.

NB: I still feel guilty. the guilt would haunt me until i settled foot at the place where the heart is.