Tuesday, 27 June 2017

toddler skin to skin contact

"Did u drink my milk? " I felt someone drinking.....

He kept quiet, thinking for a many seconds... before he answered, "me"

Just a little bit!

Why just a little bit?

Im afraid u will scold me

Why? U like to drink my milk?


U want to drink a lot?


on another occaion:

When i was still sleeping he tries to roll up my shirt from my back
He had difficulty then he decided he has to also roll up from the front

When he was doing it from the front, suddenly he saw my nipple and decided to give it a suck

When i woke up he got startled

Oh, he explained "i thought you are sleeping"

yes, and he decided to stack books on my back

this guy make me feel that if he can crawl under my skin, he would!
he loves to rub his face all over me...and sometimes it hurts.
he gets heavier now (as compared to last time because he is very tiny for someone his age) and whenever he sleeps on me, even if it is only his head nested on my chest (between shoulder and neck), i would felt out of breath!
what should i do!

son, that does not mean i love u any lesser.
but really, it suffocates me and hurts my collarbone. eekk


-march 2017-

Friday, 16 June 2017


Today after school i picked ks home

He overheard his dad telling me that he (dad) wanted apples and oranges

Ks exclaimed that he wanted apple too

Then he began asking:

Him: isna talk english?

Me: no. She speaks in bahasa

Him: what is skin?

Me: kulit

Him: tidak mau kulit. What is meat?

Me: isi. Meat is i-si

Him: isi. What is skin again?

Me: kulit


Then i recalled back in ah ma's house last week, ks yelped to his grandma, "ahma Ni suap wo!" .....no one responded
Ahma! Ni suap wo!

Only kj can understood 😂

Kind hearted kj " ahma, kayshen yau ni feed ta"  (grandma, kayshen wants u to feed him)



Sunday, 30 April 2017


During dinner today, out of the blue kj turned to me and asked "hey mummy are u wearing your bra?"
Yes of course i am
Oh where? I thought you are not
And he lightly press my shirt down and see the "hill" not mountain
Ohhh he uttered.

His dad caught us in our conversation, this is one topic which bothers him more than it bothers me
So he quickly explain to kj that this are private parts .he cannot do that etc etc
I quickly add on that he can do so to me but not to others..only to me
I think somehow i do not want to part with him as in i do not want him to think that he cannot do such things to me and we wont be as close as before -______-'''
Heck he used to drink my milk! Haha


Friday, 10 February 2017

stop bathing with kids

I spoke to kj today

Of late, when we were watching tv togeher, it is usually me+hubs watching our dramas and he joined in

Whenever he sees woman with bra and panty he will go ueeeee

So today i had the opportunity to speak to him about it

Beginning this year, hubs reminded me to stop bathing together with kj.
i challenged him why
Hubs confided that kj is growing up now and he is aware of such issues. 
I have been bathing with him since day1 of his life till now.
alright, i am more conscious now and i only strip my clothes off, leaving my undergarments and bathed the boys.

Back to the conversation with kj.
Kj, why did u uekk when you see girls with bra and panty in the tv?
I feel shy
So next time i wont bathe with u anymore ok? Because i respect you, and if u dont like it i will not do it.
No its fine. U can bathe with me
U think its ueky right? So i will not do it, i dont want u to feel uncomfortable
 It is not uncomfortable. Just a lil bit shy
Maybe skip one day?
*i understand he means every other day
Okay we can do that. And i will put on my bra and panty ok?
Ok (all the time trying to look at his story book)

There is many school of thoughts for this.

To let your children see naked body and they wont feel gross when they see naked bodies outside the house?

Really there are many controversial stories out there

This is not a post for discussion
This is to remind me of tonight's conversation:)


Thursday, 5 January 2017

how to cook canned sardine

sardine recipe

hubs came home late and when he was eating, i sat on the dining table too.

"come, eat this" i encouraged.
i know he doesnt fancy sardine, but anyway....

Me: come...eat it...
Him: no thank you
Me: come..eat it...
(i was persistent..heh)
Him: no, i dont eat sardine
(duh like i dont know!)
Me: i know, just try it!

reluctantly dip into the gravy and put into his mouth
Him: mmmm! yum! hurry tell me...what did u put?
i gave him a smug look...
Him: hurry...tell me...what did u put?
Me: .........

Him: "mmmm! that is why i love indian food!
indian food is amazing yada yada..."

here goes the recipe before i forgot and fail to replicate in future :)

1 can of sardine
1 fresh tomato
garlic, 2 slices of ginger
1 onion
2 sprig curry leaves
1/4tsp fennel seed
1/4 tsp cumin seed
1/4 tsp coriander seed
curry powder
turmeric powder

1. heat oil in skillet
2.sweat onion, garlic, ginger in the skillet until brown
3. add in the spices and continue to fry till fragrant
4. add in curry leaves and tomato
5. pour in can of sardine
6. add curry powder and turmeric powder and some water and simmer. add salt and sugar to taste

the way i cook is that i dont measure, unless im baking.
so i threw everything into the skillet without measuring hence im lucky this dish comes out delicious! ;)

thanks to my colleague (a guy!) for cooking this and bringing it to work.
it got me started googling for sardine recipe! *thumbs up*

sweet and sour pork recipe

it was raining so i came home from work and decided to cook something different!

sweet and sour pork!

recipe before i forget:

pork slices
1 tbs corn flour
1tbs rice flour
2 tbs plain flour
2 tbs plum sauce
1 tbs lea and perrins
1 tbs tomato sauce (ketchup)
1tbs soy sauce
2 tsp? sugar
2tbs water

1. coat meat with 3 types of flour
2. deep fry
3. discard cooking oil.
4. mix all the sauces and pour into skillet
5. throw in the fried meat and coat them with sauces
dish out