a note for him

note for KJ:

son, today, at this very moment, it is 6.57 pm already and your dearest father is crazily banging on guitar hero. he said let him play one last song before he goes over to bring you back. he forbids me to go over and bring u home now because once you are home, he cant blare the music as loud as he would love to.

and also, son, uncle charles asked me to make a record, for pay-back time. at this age, at what time, what date, u bit my nipple, sometimes even pull the nipple and looked up at mum with innocent eyes.

it is 7.02pm. my head is thumping from the music.

if he doesnt move any longer, im going to yell. HA-HA

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not healthy

this is a dilemma.

wives are suppose to do the domestic chores, as they are known to be the domestic wives!

but what happens if both the husband and wife work in the same profession?

after work, the wife has to come home and continue slaving to serve the LIFE partner?

i know, there are wives outside who still have to work and bring money home and yet has to come home and do all the chores.

those people really deserve to be respected.

i cant cope. no matter how embarrassing this is, i still have to admit cause this is the reality.

i wont pretend to be a superwife and supermom when i am not one.

sad right?

i really do love serving him but despite all these while, it just dawned upon me that i just cant do it! :(

life becomes bitter when it reaches this stage.

this is not a healthy start to a new family, especially.

something has to be done.

oh, by the way, ive got a maid :) but she only comes once a week. not helping much when u have a husband who has a full time maid at home, not forgetting a very lenient mom.

it pisses me off when i need to do charity everyday as well. it is unwilling type of charity.

whyyy??? u need to be willing and happy when u want to do charity right?

grhh

runaway

i so so so so feel like running home.

but home is far far away

i so want to just grab my son and off we go

emotional, with an E

feels so emo...

the moment we reach home from work, he stripped himself in the living room and put on sports attire and off he goes to the field.

while the woman ...doesnt know where to start. she has to fold the clothes which was brought in (afraid of rain) during lunch time. yes, she goes home during lunch time to store the ebm. then, she has to cook dinner, which begins to be such a chore these days.

she doesnt like to share the kitchen, working in a kitchen with MEN who doesnt know the unspoken rules in the kitchen. waters dripping everywhere, to name a few. the position of a knife. bla bla bla. furthermore, u have the guts, u unabashedly come home straight from work, compete with me, quickly rush to the kitchen to use MY UTENSILS first. what is this??

not to mention u sneakily use my water thermos! and u said u WILL only pay RM 20 per month??? HUHHHHHH???????

im doing charity???

ugh! i so feel like crying. so feel like running home, with my son of course.

talk about JUSTICE! about fairness! equality between man and woman. haihhh...

upsets me.

im no superwoman after all.

no appetite tonight. worse is, i feel nauseous.

i miss him...

fish & co

mothers day dinner at 4pm :S
taken on 9/5/10~

M day 2010

its 7.30am and im already back from the morning market !

the silai-ness!

haha!

well, if i dont cook, he would want to eat out! so to save money, i have to prepare food!!

oh, ive digressed.

for those who are in the dark...

this is my update!

kayjay was born premature. and he still cannot play kuci kuci koo... or ang gu gu..

anyway, he is my new toy and im willing to stay home and not go to the movies...

i cant possibly go to the cinema and leave him with the nanny! unless if my mom is here to look after him, then it is a different story ;)

anyway anyway,

one night, i got up to pee at 2am. as your tummy gets bigger, you will pee more frequently. so then, after peeing, i went back to bed. after 10 mins, my eyelids flew open! i went " wth? i pee-ed in my pants?"

so i got up and walked to the toilet and stare down at my legs. eh? how come it trickles along my thigh? and how come it looked a little gooey? it was transparent..

i woke him up and he was still in a daze. he said, HOLD ON, let me check first. he sat up, put on his glasses and typed on the computer.

i couldnt wait anymore, so i said COME LETS GO TO THE HOSP! thought i was being smart, i brought along my identification card.

when we reached Likas Hospital, the HO said i need to be admitted, need to deliver within 24 hours. cause water broke, so scared of infection and the water bag will dry up.

stupid right? it didnt occur to me that it is the water bag.

and i said i THOUGHT i was smart right? by right i should bring along towels, toothbrush and etc etc...

there were a little confusion as i wasnt very certain with my term date. is that what u call? i mean the number of weeks that i was in. so doctors were contemplating on whether if i should be given IV dexamethasone.

i was given IV ampicillin to prevent infection.

the contractions came in the morning and i held on to fh's hand, which he claimed that i could have broken his fingers. -_-'''

ehee

the dilations were slow and Dr.ramon was kind enough to push me in to the labour room when it was only 2.5 cm. the government only allows Epidural to be given from 3cm onwards.

i waited for eons for Dr. Jasmine, the anaesthesiologist. the Apgar score was high (strong contractions) and i was forbade to push. have to tahan cause need to wait for her. the bloody nurses ignored me and the room was bloody hot. hb wasnt allowed to be in the labour room initially but i lied and he ended up in the room at the end :D well i didnt exactly lied, i told the nurse to call him in because i want to ask him to go buy baby stuff cause we had NONE! no towel, no clothes, no whatsoever!

when the bear got unbearable! i told hubby that i want to be operated! it was like u want to pass motion and it is already at our tip but u had to PUSH it BACK inside! they asked me not to push! bah!

so when i said i couldnt stand it any longer, HB went out and tell them then the midwives came in and said i could deliver already, without the epidural.

:S

by that time, the apgar score dropped and the contractions were not that strong and frequent anymore :( so i had to push many many times. sigh. i wasnt allowed to yell. not that i am yelling. i felt sleepy.

sorry. this was typed yesterday (sunday, Mothers' Day). typed halfway and ds (dear son) woke up and i had to feed him and then laundry and prepare lunch. after lunch, chill for a while and went out till 7pm and i fell unconscious at 8pm till 2am for the next feed, and woke up late this morning, at 7am.

the story will be continued, when im in the mood :p

omg omg! i have to spill this!

i AM smitten by a dr!!

omgggGGG! help!!!!

he is cute , no 1!

he is a specialist ! no 2!

fh teases me sometimes, to make matters worse!

what on earth is happening?

hormone imbalance is the culprit?

help help!!

he is so cuteeeeeeee

tell me that im perasan! cause im quite sure he likes me too! ahahAHAHHAHAHA

cmon people! laugh!!! :DDD

he asked me out for dinner! wheeewit!! thanks to a patient! she asked him to ask me out! whoohoo!!!

ahahahhaahahaha

and he asked if i want to play badminton!

it is so OMG right???

and i am so crazy over kayjay!!!!

i'd rather watch him sleep and not read up on diabetic drugs or do my antifungal report! :S

once a fortnight

mygawd.

im blogging once a fortnight?

that's bad.

ehehehhe..nah..not that bad. :)

i usually blog according to mood. as in, the urgency. this is a very natural feeling. when u feel like blogging, u blog, isnt it that way?

anyway, i have complaints! when do i not have? :S

grhhHH!!! living in KK makes me miss Kuching! sigh. :)

i thought i could get Star Newspaper daily. neither did it cross my mind that the supply here is extremely limited.

u can only get the paper at 2pm at shops (cause u need to fly the papers over), and if u start to hunt for them after working hours, poof, they are all sold out. :S

seafood is not as cheap in KK as what people perceived.

tawau is cheaper, and perhaps sandakan.

however, the pork here is good! no smelly porky taste! :)

n pineapples are abundant! i could eat one whole pineapple at once! the only snag is chopping up the fruit. and ive been eating lotsa red/orange fruits. namely oranges, persimmons and papayas. oooO..jaundice, dont come to me!

okies! times up! i have to run. many errands undone. gotta iron clothes, fill up water bottles, plan the menu for the week and etc.

yawn. im feeling sleepy already. it is 9pm now by the way.

:)

nites all!

have a good week ahead!

oh, n its feb tomorrow. sobs. i miss home. chinese new year will be just like any other day for both of us.

i havent have time to tell u people about valentine! ehee..nah, i wanted to whine about my valentine gift for him. he wanted to get a ps3 badly. so well, i said i could get it as your valentine gift. but in the end, he got greedy and said i'll buy him ps3 and he'll get xbox or was it ipad? then he was fickle-minded, contemplating between ps3, xbox or ipad and whatnot.

:S

k, really gotta run. chao!

ive watched spykids!!

yesterday (saturday) was the first time we argued in 'public'

it was about his driving skills

his negligence (in my opinion)

let me explain one by one. 'public' means, in the living room, where 2 housemates can hear us eventhough they were in their rooms but with their doors opened, and 3 house-keepers. *ha!*

wasn't that cool?

as for his negligence, he is always VERY CARELESS when he is driving. he said i complained too much when he is behind the wheel. but if he were to drive carefully, then would i at the first place nag? so he became stressed when i nag, then what about me? i would be stressed as well when he doesnt drive properly!

do u know that to that extent, that he is lazy to use the clutch when he is driving a manual? goodness me! dont drive then if ure LAZY! the car would jerk if u dont use it. he is even LAZY when it comes to changing gears.

what else? he can miss a turning, make that numerous turnings (max 2 so far) in A ride home. a 15 minutes ride home, he can miss 2 turnings all together.

????

what's the explanation?

a man handling multi-million business wouldnt even be that careless, would he?

tell me about brain-occupied hence the forgetfulness.

huge DUH!

we've been arguing about his driving wayyyyyy back in IMU.

he couldnt concentrate and would miss turnings even in KL. (hence not a recent disease)

u'd think he would shut the hell up when i yell?

NO! he would sometimes retort with ULTRA LAME excuses! i cant exactly remember them. perhaps things like he doesn't know the way. this would inflame me seriously! like HELLO? it is like telling me you dont know the way home. then i would burst and snapped WHY DIDNT U ASK ME THEN!??!?!?!

it would also enrage me when he said he forgot the way. blardy!

so we said, nope, more like i said, i suggested that the best way to this problem is! THAT I DRIVE! settles everything, no?

tsk tsk tsk. guys and their ego.

imagine me fetching him, and our housemates, who happened to be his batchmates.

ahahhaahhaha

though this has never happened, but would, soon! HA!HA!

i have to be an idiot and point where to turn sometimes, just in case if he decided to conveniently forget (how do i know when he would miss a turning?), and he would go 'i know i know' and i would just ignore him when im in the mood and continue pointing.

obviously, dont get me wrong.

when im angry, i would get over it quickly after spilling them.

how could I get angry with such a man when he comes up with such video? i print-screen this photo from the video. made me go 'awwwww' when i see the 2009-forever. how attentive of him to put "- forever"! ahhaahhaha im a psycho i know, but truthfully, the first thing that entered my mind when i saw that word was WOW, how thoughtful of him!

:)

well, this is not all about my new life.

about marriage

we'll do it bit by bit ok? lols!

woh-k!

time for me to go get my case notes done!

sigh

dont know lots of things.

FRP: million?

me: yes? *jovially*

FRP: how come u everything also dont know wan?

me: ha? i also dont know why i dont know.

PA: aiyah, slowly la, shez learning ma.

me: yealoh yealoh, give me some time. i am learning now.

how embarrassing.

nope, im not actually that embarrassed. i felt stupid BUT YET i want someone to teach me! as in, i already know i lack of knowledge, but i need people to teach me!

what i do now in IPP is to screen the medications (they seemed to be normal to me :S cause i dont know what is wrong you see. i dont know what cant be given with what) im suppose to detect wrong dosage or wrong frequency or interactions, but i am oblivious to them all. ??? how do i know? i dont have time to go through all the drugs one by one!

so, the screening part is always fine to me :S

next would be filling and checking. if i do the filling, then someone else has to check. and vice versa.

mmm....this is really continuous education. i need to find ways to feed my brain.

i want to be like the FRPs, where they can intervene and argue with the doctors! ;)

ekekkekekeke

till then!

cheerio!

affable jack

i know. has been eons since i last showed up!

although i have plans of what im going to post up following the phantom period, i doubt i'll do it soon, im the procrastinating queen! so to hell with it. i like to build castles in the air, tsk tsk, bad habit.

anyway, im DYING to blog. :S

k, first of all, i'll just make a brief summary. im married! YAY!!! :S

and this is my husband -_-''''

ahhahaha!

ok.

im currently in kota kinabalu,

slaving in hospital queen elizabeth,

in short, HQE.

btw btw,

im actually excited to unfold an event which occurred this afternoon.

in all honesty, i do enjoy reading and listening to peoples' stories about their workplace incidents.

so i'd like to share mine as well ;)

today is my second day in IPP (in-patient pharmacy),

3rd station in HQE.

and i am enjoying it.

despite being engrossed in filling and checking drug charts,

ive fallen in love with JACK!

:)))

he is soooooo nice!

he merely called to my satellite pharmacy and i was smitten by his personality and his voice!

he's an HO!

wahaha!

oh duh, u'd think an MO would be courteous?

anyway, dr.jack called and i apologetically told him i was new, so i couldnt answer his questions.

heck, whats oral resonium? oral kalimate?

i even called back and gave him the wrong answer.

screw me.

then i called him AGAIN, 3 times in total,

just to get the correct dose for kalimate.

despite everything, he was immensely pleasant.

he is also very humble,

simply because he referred himself as JACK, instead of DR. jack.

see how these details can affect oneself?

mmmmMMMmmmm

he's my ignition!

ahhahaahah

stirred up the blogging flame i mean :p

in within a month,

i've learnt to walk with my nose HIGHHHH in the air when i spot NOSY doctors from afar

most of them are MOs.

(Medical Officer)

WHy so LC?

(abbrev for lansi)

so when we glide pass one another,

we'll see whose nose is nearer to the sky!

-_-'''

dont worry,

the tip of my nose is not burnt,

cause i applied lotsa sunblock before leaving for work.

lame joke

well i tell you!

this place is atrociously HOT!

the sun's rays have no mercy.

garhh!

hmm...guess i should make a leave STAT!

else i would yab incessantly.

toodles!

i hereby attached some photos simply for some entertainment

;)

sesat huh?

why do ppl find it romantic to be up in the eye?

LONDON EYE?