ive resurfaced

sighhhhhhh

has been a really really long time since i ditched u dear blogspot!

it was really difficult not speaking to u for such a LONG TIME!

anyway, i would be real random this time, hence it would be quite messy.

#1:

i cant seem to cope with my current life. it is too demanding and hectic, till im having migraine for this entire week. it is pcm pcm pcm. what other choice do i have? like now, the migraine residue is still dancing in my head.

#2:

ive hired a maid, she comes once a week and she is of tremendous help i kid u not! i do not have to worry about the big baby not having his clothes pressed on monday! what i did last time was i would wake up early, about 6 am and will iron one or two. i used to jump on hb to sweep and mop the floor last time :p cause i was pregnant , how do u expect me to half-bend and do the chore? :p

yet now i do not have to worry about this anymore. however, cleaning the house ONCE A WEEK is insufficient. we cannot afford to hire her more than once a week, hence we have to close one eye and live in a semi-clean environment.

in order to save $, we try to eat in as well, which means more work for me. right after work, i'll rush to the kitchen and start to wash the rice, chop meat, wash vegge etc etc etc. when im done, or while waiting for the things to cook, i'll dash to our bedroom and fold the clothes. i would usually keep the clothes during lunch time (i go home during lunch hour) so that the clothes wouldnt be wet/cold since it rains most of the afternoon. after im done with the clothes, i'll bath. after that, the food would be ready. if hb doesnt go for football, we'll either bring KJ over from the nanny or we'll eat and then bring him home.

if hb goes for football, i'll bring KJ home first.

but there is a change last month.

i got mad with the system, so i ate first and bring KJ home.

so by the time im done with dinner and KJ is home with me, i'll try to give my full attention to KJ. although i would sometimes stray away from him (come online for a while), i would still try to make it up to him by singing and talking.

im not a good talker. i cant talk to him. i am not used to pouring out my heart to teddy bears or anything like that. whats more is that i dont even feel like talking when im left with 10% of energy.

why do i feel like i owed it to him to talk and sing and play with him? because i feel guilty for not spending the day with him.

crazy right?

#3:

my hp is not that important to me anymore. i can go out without my cellphone, or my purse. when we need to go out, i would need to remember to carry his diapers, extra shirts, and cloths. obviously i will not forget my baby when i go out :p so i never leave him alone at home. hardly.

sometimes when he wakes up early in the morning in the weekends, i would bring him together with me to the market! :) he enjoys it since he is a kay-poh-chi! :)) he loves to look around and explore things

#4:

something needs to be done about my situation now. i need to rope hb into the team, to serve the baby and ourselves. im not a supermother or a superhousewife :(

hence, he does most of the pot or wok cleaning and i'll try to arrange things so that he (hb) can chip in. such as i'll throw the clothes into the washing machine in the evening so that he can hang them at night before he goes to sleep. i'll sometimes transfer them out to the front of the house when i wake up the next day, to get sunlight and prevent them from getting musty.

sometimes is i fail to do the laundry in time for him to dry them, i would dry them myself when i get up in the morning, before i go to work.

he would also cook when im not in the mood :p my recipes are limited. when i was pregnant, my browser is flooded with recipes but NOW! is all about BABY! i spent so much time searching and reading about baby stuff. every little thing needs to be goggled. heck! kiasu mother! read until my eyes want to pop out sometimes!

now im reading about BABY ON SOLIDS!

because KJ will be eating solids in 2 weeks time! i would be lying if i tell you i am not excited!

oh oh! and hb said im mad when i befriended mothers online! :D

i even went to their houses! :))))

the power or motherhood!

you will go all out for your baby!

there is another excitement! im excited to have another baby!

ahahahhaahha

i so want to have more! but sigh. we cant afford it. plus the environment and everything else doesnt favour another family member so i'll jsut have to wait. :)

i missed those times when i can blog hop!

hence im really outdated

hope my dear friends are doing well